Singin' at the moment: Heaven by DJ Sammy feat. Yanou


The party last night was pretty boring. All of my mom's friends that haven't seen me since I was like 12 were all, "Oh my gosh! Miladel is so beautiful! You should be a model, oh my gosh you're beauty is amazing!" -_-;;;;;; WTF? They were all attacking me with their compliments and stuff while I was trying to read my book and write in my journal outside. They kept telling my mom that she should enter me in the "Watsonville Filipino Community Beauty Pagent". Guar. One of my mom's friends grabbed my hand right before we were about to leave and took me to the dance floor. >.< God damnit her friends are evil. This is what you have to put up with when you're Filipino. Filipino's don't care about your feelings, they just say whatever is on their minds whether you're butt ugly or pretty, they'll tell you what's up. I hate it. XD


My mom told my brother and sister about what her friends were saying and about her entering me into a beauty pagent. THANK GOD my brother said something that made me feel a little better about the attacks of last night: "HAHAHAHAHAHA! Miladel can never be in a beauty pagent, she's too much of a tomboy!" Believe it or not, that remark felt really good. I'd rather be a tomboy than a beauty queen. lol.


Anywho, I finally got my peircings yesterday. Another hole on each lobe and I got my right ear cartilage pierced. The piercings didn't hurt at all, it felt like a little bug bite but AFTERWARDS when my mom's stupid friends kept hugging and kissing me and rubbing their hands on my FUCKING ears, I felt like my ear was about to fall off. Of course, I had to keep smiling and giving respect to my elders. I guess I like being nice, but then I love being a bitch. Gah, all of these emotions are all part of me and it pisses me off how I can't just stay stable with one personality. I guess this is what I get for being a gemini.


I have no idea what I'm going to be doing today. My mom wants me to go to her other friend's house for her anniversary thing, but I passed. She's going to take me to Staples/Wallgreens to get some binder paper, but other than that, I MIGHT just stay home or something. Hmmm... maybe I should go downtown to Borders and read. Shit, it's only Sunday. The anticipation of school is pissing me off, why can't it be here already? I want the work to pile up on me once again so I wouldn't be so fucking bored. Oh! I should go to the mall and buy some new pants. And then, I could go downtown to Wherehouse music and buy some new CDs and then to BORDERS to go listen to my new CDs and read my book. Wheeeeeeeeee! ^.^


I am such a schizo...